Lightning in your eyes

So I have noticed how some of you use your words to play off other people, or to feed people what they want to hear. Sure we all do it from time to time, but where do you draw the line, instead of doing from time to time, your the person doing it constantly just to keep...everyone close to you, to feed your ego.
But I have caught on your little game, you telling me things that you know i want to hear, so that i'll stay around, feed your ego, feed your sexual needs. and then you go an tell me all the bad stuff that other people tell about me so i cry to you and bitch to you about how nasty those mean people are! Well sweetheart, eventually your own game will catch up to you, you talk about how a few of us have cheated on your or cheated on life, well...your not so great yourself, because deep down, we cheated because we knew you had already done it mentally, or where going to physically. Does that justify what we did or WHO we did, or..WHO'S we did. lol, ummm no probly not, two wrongs don't make a right, but they do make one hell of a left.

But I should admit, I do love hearing the stories about how other's view me, kinda feed of the "news". And...I also have annoucement to admit.... ALERT THE PRESS!...(drumm roll please)... I also keep you ALL around to feed my ego, because..life is about test, or life is one big dance right? Sure we had our shitty moments together, and our really hot sexual moments, and our spirtiual up lifting moments, and Now at this point of ...what shall we call it.. LIMBO, is it really just the truth to possibly say we are both just keeping eachother around for entertainment? True feelings?

Because deep down you and I both know that...if i wanted I could date anybody, just put on a mask and be little mis perfect, or Golddigger, or Bad Sex craved Women, or..the girl next door. but honey in all honesty that even i cant denie is that...you know the true me, no mask needed.
Like i noted before this year is a turning point to HAPPINESS..but...at what coast? or..at what persons expencise? You an I both know that I will have that house on the hill..no matter what. I know where I am going, I know the goals I have the dreams I have. I would like you to be part of them, but really aren't we both replaceable to eachother? Love is just about who brings the most to the poker table. The one with the highest Bid.

Well honey I am sitting at this poker tabel..all i need is one more player...wanna join?

Looking for the next bid.
Mare